Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Being a mommy again
I really can't believe that I am going to be a mommy again. I feel like we were just bringing our Anna home from the hospital and now here we are doing it all again. It's funny how much you can forget about the actual process of being pregnant in three years time even though in some ways it feels like yesterday. Everyday I look at the info online to see what my baby looks like today, what new organs he/she has grown and what various other changes have occured. The thing that leaves me amazed each day is just how intricate and precise the human body is and what a miracle it is to be occuring inside of me!
With all that occurs on the inside of your body during the first stages of motherhood nothing prepared me for all the changes that would occur on the inside of my heart. The overwhelming love for a tiny being who looks more like a alien than a human. The worry for their safety. The constant thought about names and nursery colors. The dream of giving them a happy, meaningful life, full of hope and a love for their Creator. The moments spent imagining what their precious face will look like the first moment you see it. It's all about this journey called motherhood. It begins when the test shows two lines and ends, never!
(Here is a picture of my precious Anna the first time I held her!)